being single

Okay, from now on, this blog belongs to me and only me. This shows how much frustrated I am. How can I share my life, when I can't even share my blog with him? He wants it to be this way, then let this be the way. I am fine ALONE, maybe even better without you. I am strong, I have never depend on you and I will remain to be like this.

Being emo

I dont like to use money that is not mine, and I dont like people to use my money. I dont mind people hated me for that. Really, why would you hate me when YOU are the one who is using my money at your leisure?

I've grown up when life is hard. Money is not something that you can spend on your own, even if it is your pocket money, and you save it hard to buy something that you like, your dad will still get mad at you for buying something without his permission. I value money, and I know how hard it is without money. Yes, and that is why I studied really hard, so that, I do not have to use my parents' money when I want to further my study. Alhamdulillah, I am grateful for not being a burden to my parents (this is only what I feel, maybe I am being a burden, Nauzubillah, hopefully I am not). Some of my siblings grown up when financial burden is no longer an issue for my family. Thus, I think, I maybe wrong, they are being pampered. I feel bad for my parents, so I think I have to let them know. Asking money shamelessly, and still disobeying their parents, how irrational can one be? Even if they hated me for it, I will do it, and will never regret my actions. So, come on, hate me, but, just be a proper son/daughter. I am not perfect, and so do you, so open your mind a bit, see things thoroughly. I hope they will change, insyaAllah, ameen. For a better tomorrow. :)

tungguuu!!! :)

Fuhhh, I want to update on my big bro's wedding but I'm not feeling well right now. Sore throat plus runny nose. huhu. :( plus, I havent get all the photos from all the cameraman. Hehehehe. Sila nantikan yea. I hope someone took a lot of photos for my hantaran. Nak tunjuk kehebatan skill ni! *rase nak termuntah tak??* :P

P/s: Will be having a date this Wednesday. Can hardly wait! ;)

Hati yang Lara

I know I havent been able to talk to him properly lately because of the wedding preparation. But, how do I say it, even when I called him, it felt like he did not even want to talk to me. He seldom texted me, well he always said that he wants to save money, but 1 sen je kot? kalau sehari bagi lima sms, baru 5 sen, so whats the big deal kan?

Well, I know, I am a super kuat merajuk girl, but before, you are always patient, treat me well, because I thought you know me deep enough. Now, even listening to you, I know you cant deal with me anymore, macam, aaaghh aku da give up ngan minah ni. Things like that.

Well, with being exhausted from doing the hantaran, and the sadness for being treating like this, I dont like it, no ONE like it. But being me, stupid as always, I just keep calling or sms-ing him. That way, he wont know how serious the situation is. Or how sad I felt being treated like that.

So what now peeps? Should I ignore him until he become himself, or pretend that he is the nicest guy on Earth and just continue normally or should I just be single? If you ask me personally, I just want to be single. FULL STOP.

wedding preparation

Fuhhh. I feel like it's been awhile since I last blogged. Too busy preparing for my eldest brother's wedding. This is my first time designing the hantaran, so things are quite difficult. Luckily, I have Ida as my kuli hahahaha. :P

Just finished the hantaran, with just only the two of us, I think it is quite amazing to prepare the hantaran (7 dulang) plus the ring and the mas kawin in just three nights. :)) Me and Ida are quite satisfied with our work, but well, I do not think it is impossible to hear any unwanted comments (I can already picture it in my head! :D). For us, first-timers, I do not think we totally fail with designing hantaran. Mak wanted to buy the prepared ones, but I insist on doing it by myself. :)

So, now that I am done with the dulangs, right now, I am downloading the latest episode of One Piece and Fairy Tail. Hehehe. And I am going to read the latest chapter of my favorite mangas - OP, Bleach, Fairy Tail, and Cage of Eden. Tomorrow might be a busy day, me and Ida plan to go to do a facial thingy, and Ida wants to go to see the dentist. Hmmm. And maybe it is a good day for us to do our last-minute shopping for the wedding day!! :) Hopefully, the event will go smoothly. InsyaAllah. :)

Time to sleep everyone! Nitey nite and sweet dreams!! :)

Wheel of Life

Just wondering if my life will stay in the same spot of darkness, or move forward to the bright light? I hope it will move forward, even if it is a slow walk, I still hope I can enjoy the bright light. :)

A newborn baby!!!

Well, this is not actually my business, but since he is so busy working, let me tell you about the good news.

Edy's younger sister has delivered a cute, healthy, amazing baby boy!!!! Woohoo!! How cool is that? Congrats!!! :) Okay, now I feel sad, when is my turn? :s so my big brother, cepat2 kawin and dapat anak kay? :) Well, the event is just around the corner pon. So kamal, I want a NIECE (gila bias!! :P).


Awwww, what a cute baby!! Hope you stay healthy and cute! Ameeen. :)

To Asue: Sori, akak curi gambar yea. :)